flirty I will never be what you want, I can only disappoint you. This is a fact. I appreciate everyone that still loves me anyways and puts up with me...not that there is that many people that do..
I know that a lot of people want what they feel is best for me, and I know they mean well, but I just feel like shit when I can't give them exactly what they want and I let them down. I get lonely so easily and I just want someone around all the time. I am trying to get my school going and get a job...and some new friends wouldn't hurt. I just feel like I am trying soo hard to be this way, but sometimes I feel like I am being that way cause I want to please other people and not myself.
Can I be myself and you still be proud to know me?
All I know is me and Zachary get along soo well even though all the shit because I know I can tell him literally anything and he will let me work it out. I wish I could be like this with everyone I know.
I saw something the other day that said how people love other people without liking them. I hope I am never like that. I see the bad in people, but I love and like them through it all. I know that I have found that kind of acceptance in a few people, but I just wish they weren't let down by the paths I choose.
I wish I could figure out how to say what I am feeling, but it just isn't coming to me right now. I hope this makes sense.
